Thin wins.

I’m so desperate to lose weight again I don’t even know whether I should start with appetite suppressants or diet pills or excessive exercising. So scared to fall back into old patterns but I just feel so.. Fat and ugly and worthless. I need to be thinner, I can do this.

Posted 7 months ago

Looked back and realized that I’ve slowly been gaining back the weight I’ve lost one year ago. Trying to be okay with it but it’s hard especially since I’ve bee struggling with body image for the past 1 year. My legs aren’t fat now, i know, but they’re not skinny like stick thin. I want to as skinny as I used to be but I don’t want to be sick again. I don’t want to hurt all the people around me just cause I was unhappy with myself.

I really hope I start accepting myself for the size I was born to be. The size that I am when I eat normally and exercise normally.

Guys. We’re going to keep this up during the school year. We’re going to keep making time for the gym and for eating healthy. We’re going to remember to feel good about ourselves when we’re stressed with essays and thesis papers and projects. We’re not going to get freaked out and turn to junk food. We’re going to grab a piece of fruit as a snack instead of those m&m’s from the vending machine. We’re not going to be pressured to give up our goals. We will make time. We’re going to live healthy. We’re going to be happy. We will soldier on in our fitness journey, together. We’re going to do this. We’re going to remember that health is the top priority. We can do this guys.

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Posted 9 months ago