When the going gets tough, the tough get thinner.
I’m so desperate to lose weight again I don’t even know whether I should start with appetite suppressants or diet pills or excessive exercising. So scared to fall back into old patterns but I just feel so.. Fat and ugly and worthless. I need to be thinner, I can do this.
Looked back and realized that I’ve slowly been gaining back the weight I’ve lost one year ago. Trying to be okay with it but it’s hard especially since I’ve bee struggling with body image for the past 1 year. My legs aren’t fat now, i know, but they’re not skinny like stick thin. I want to as skinny as I used to be but I don’t want to be sick again. I don’t want to hurt all the people around me just cause I was unhappy with myself.
I really hope I start accepting myself for the size I was born to be. The size that I am when I eat normally and exercise normally.